I live in the dark. we live in the dark like the universe and its complexity. I try to drink my thoughts, water-like, sluicing over the inside of my mouth. we are all thirsty, aren’t we? we go on to move forward with each other. alone we can’t make it. there’s a certain kind of warmth we need because our hearts are freezing, dying. I will hold your hand and share with you my coldness and darkness and thirst [else my world]. I don’t need your assurance or company. for now, your madness is enough.
jr,
why do you believe? why do you trust? I suck at everything yet you continue to understand me. I bit my lip tonight and it didn’t bleed. I lied so you wouldn’t feel the pain. but I want you to know, i hurt every time.
ces,
you wore glasses tonight. you looked prettier.
black and white, I am happy.
I dove straight into…
…to the vast unknown.
About
- Finella
- hi. i'm finella. i like a lot of things and i think i like to feel. i also enjoy taking long walks, and watching dolphins&other sea creatures, and going to museums, and being with a few people, and eating mexican/indian food. the usual stuff—art, music, books, russia, trains, airports, philosophy, psychology, and literature— intrigue me. i'm an engineering student (MS soon to be PhD) and i don't feel like one. and i think that's okay as long as i stay true to myself. i am very idealistic, but at times, like right now, i don't feel like one because i am an enfp. my only dream is to have a constant happy disposition. that's very idealistic and i'm quite pessimistic so i don't know.