hello world. my calendar says that today is the 1st night of the last month in the gregorian calendar. i am feeling pleasant and empty as the days navigate towards the conclusion of this year. i hate endings. i hate rivers. i hate nods, and eyes casting downwards as if wanting to flood the surface of the earth with negated emotions and neglect. someday i will attempt to carry the true neolithic henges and stone circles. my arms will probably grow veins delineating each anguish. until that time i will cup the heavy heart around the fist, going to let it beat under its own steam for a hundred years
About
- Finella
- hi. i'm finella. i like a lot of things and i think i like to feel. i also enjoy taking long walks, and watching dolphins&other sea creatures, and going to museums, and being with a few people, and eating mexican/indian food. the usual stuff—art, music, books, russia, trains, airports, philosophy, psychology, and literature— intrigue me. i'm an engineering student (MS soon to be PhD) and i don't feel like one. and i think that's okay as long as i stay true to myself. i am very idealistic, but at times, like right now, i don't feel like one because i am an enfp. my only dream is to have a constant happy disposition. that's very idealistic and i'm quite pessimistic so i don't know.