if all the raindrops were lemon drops and gum drops, oh what a rain that would be!
i miss watching barney. i used to watch it with my brother. old age has definitely stripped me off the tiny (basic) things that make a person happy. when i was young, i used to wonder why my tita or my mama doesn't buy barbie dolls and doll houses anymore. i even promised to myself that i won't let ken and barbie down - i will buy every single ken and barbie dolls all over the world if that was possible.
how could it be that my barbie obsession died?
have i changed that much?
have i became that trumped up, untrue, and even untrustworthy to my own self?
why haven't i kept my promise and instead let myself down?
...
let's call it a night... and so is tomorrow, and next week, and next month, and next year, and next life time.
About
- Finella
- hi. i'm finella. i like a lot of things and i think i like to feel. i also enjoy taking long walks, and watching dolphins&other sea creatures, and going to museums, and being with a few people, and eating mexican/indian food. the usual stuff—art, music, books, russia, trains, airports, philosophy, psychology, and literature— intrigue me. i'm an engineering student (MS soon to be PhD) and i don't feel like one. and i think that's okay as long as i stay true to myself. i am very idealistic, but at times, like right now, i don't feel like one because i am an enfp. my only dream is to have a constant happy disposition. that's very idealistic and i'm quite pessimistic so i don't know.