...Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you'll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way.
- Janet Fitch, White Oleander
someday, i will fill my room with big, hard-bound books. i won't put them in shelves, and instead, stack them on the floor like king khufu's pyramid. i will buy one van gogh painting, a coffee table, a chinese tea set, minute persian rugs, and a multicolored parrot. and when that day comes, i will promise myself to take a long walk on our neighborhood with my own sweet, intelligent musician guy that will constantly sweep me off my feet. thank you. good night.
