i feel like im so irresponsible and unworthy of the responsibilities i was asked to shoulder. she is more deserving than i am. I feel incompetent. but i have been doing what im asked to do. i try so much. People aren't just letting me to handle things my way.
memcom meeting was productive. apps night will be bold and provocative. im thinking of a pitch black party. something that will let your senses take control over your what you feel and do.
smoker's night tom. hayok on tues. cant fakking wait.
at least i still have some people who believe in me. waaah thanks to aron and jowell. why do i have to feel so small?
About
- Finella
- hi. i'm finella. i like a lot of things and i think i like to feel. i also enjoy taking long walks, and watching dolphins&other sea creatures, and going to museums, and being with a few people, and eating mexican/indian food. the usual stuff—art, music, books, russia, trains, airports, philosophy, psychology, and literature— intrigue me. i'm an engineering student (MS soon to be PhD) and i don't feel like one. and i think that's okay as long as i stay true to myself. i am very idealistic, but at times, like right now, i don't feel like one because i am an enfp. my only dream is to have a constant happy disposition. that's very idealistic and i'm quite pessimistic so i don't know.