just got home from a wedding
feel like i will never be that kind of girl
the one who marries and have kids
because i am too self-absorbed,
too selfish (and maybe a tad bit child-like)
i'm thinking of going to bicol
all alone with an ipod and a good book
i'll take the train then get off at legazpi
see mount mayon
ride the train again
then go back home
feel like a big part of me
yearns for a way out,
a temporary way out
now feel sad because i don't know what to feel anymore
after attending a wedding
and eating approx 700 calories of food
i feel really unhappy
always like this after going to weddings
About
- Finella
- hi. i'm finella. i like a lot of things and i think i like to feel. i also enjoy taking long walks, and watching dolphins&other sea creatures, and going to museums, and being with a few people, and eating mexican/indian food. the usual stuff—art, music, books, russia, trains, airports, philosophy, psychology, and literature— intrigue me. i'm an engineering student (MS soon to be PhD) and i don't feel like one. and i think that's okay as long as i stay true to myself. i am very idealistic, but at times, like right now, i don't feel like one because i am an enfp. my only dream is to have a constant happy disposition. that's very idealistic and i'm quite pessimistic so i don't know.