i've never felt this alone. oh gosh. gosh. gosh. i don't want to think of the future, of everything else. i am thinking about doing it again. i'm just so self-absorbed and self-destructive sometimes.
i want to empty my mind and just slip away silently. no one will notice and i won't let anyone down, i promise.
About
- Finella
- hi. i'm finella. i like a lot of things and i think i like to feel. i also enjoy taking long walks, and watching dolphins&other sea creatures, and going to museums, and being with a few people, and eating mexican/indian food. the usual stuff—art, music, books, russia, trains, airports, philosophy, psychology, and literature— intrigue me. i'm an engineering student (MS soon to be PhD) and i don't feel like one. and i think that's okay as long as i stay true to myself. i am very idealistic, but at times, like right now, i don't feel like one because i am an enfp. my only dream is to have a constant happy disposition. that's very idealistic and i'm quite pessimistic so i don't know.